Bombay day 1 part 2

Last night while we were driving to Asha Gram Campus we drove through the slums of Bombay. It was nothing that anyone could ever describe or prepare you for. The homes were made of tin, garbage bags, leaves, and they were just piled on top of each other. The entry to the small "homes" were a small space you had to crawl to get into. While driving through, the kids were all outside just playing and enjoying their time with each other. They really had nothing I am sure many of them went days without having food but as we drove by and waved to the kids they faced lit up and their smiles were beaming .. they giggled and laughed at the foreigners in the car, while we smiled back I knew all our hearts were breaking simultaneously. I was sent here on a mission, this trip I know was ordained by God. However, when I looked around, my heart instantly fell. I no longer felt excited or believed this trip was going to be life changing for the lives around me. I began to feel hopelessness. How Lord, can I even begin to help these people, will me being here even make a difference? How can i offer hope to a hopeless nation? It wasn't just some parts of India that had hopeless people and poverty ... it was every part... it began to be overwhelming. I have seen poverty all over the world. This time... it was such a different feeling. I wanted to reach out and offer the Truth and The Hope that I have found but I could just see myself reaching out and opening my mouth and nothing coming out. I have seen people who have barely nothing be so happy and content. They have learned to live with so little and yet still find joy in the world. However, as I looked out the window there were just thousands of people who had close to nothing. The sad part of it all was most of them were children, it really broke my heart. As we made the two hour journey to Asha Gram I couldn't shake off those feelings... and was scared that it would interfere with my ministry.